So, where do I even start? Let's start with last week, I found out that I was pregnant. And I am five weeks, how exciting for me, because I am a mother. Even though I am very young, but right now I don't really mind too much at this point. I've been getting morning sickness, headaches, and been really emotional. I think it's just the phase that women go into during their pregnancy.

My boyfriend just left to go to Las Vegas Sunday morning. And ever since I've been calling him like no other day. And I've been making him angry, and he just yelled at me. I guess because it is VEGAS, I mean really why, I trust him, but I don't know. Anyways, he has been ignoring my phone calls, and he said that he will call me when he isn't angry at me. I think I should have taken CJs' advice, don't call him at all. And let him call me. I might as well just ignore his phone calls too. He doesn't want to answer mine is definitely fine, and then that means I don't have to answer his.

Today my boyfriends family rearranged every single furniture, bascailly everyone was cleaing out that basement and the top floors, since many people will arrive from Singapore in October. I still haven't broke the news out to everyone in his famiy or mine about my pregnancy. Since he is the last one to have kids.

Also, today was very special I found some pictures of him when he was a kid, and I'm excited because I am able to make a scrapbook for him secretly. I mean I really can't wait to put his baby pictures together, and also have pictures of him now. And years later he able to look back at his childhood. And I am going to start a scrapbook with him and I. We have been together for about a year and two months, but we really don't have much pictures together. My EX and I had a lot, even when he lived in Louisiana, and I lived in Virginia. We had a scrapbook with wonderful pictures.

I think that is all I have to express for now.

So, I haven't been updating like I said that I would. So, lately many things have happened. And I don't even know where to even start. Let's start with my graduation. I graduated from high school on June 9th of 2008.. My ex-boyfriend came to Virginia to celebrate it with me. And at the same time, I was dating my current boyfriend now. Here, to make it easier my ex-boyfriend is named Tuan and my current boyfriend is named Bryan.

Awhile back in July of 2005 I was dating Tuan and December of 2006 we broke up. We were together for one and a half year. We both promised each other that we would wait for each other, and get back on graduation day. Usually those type of promises don't really keep on going, and someone is bound to break it. And I was very devastated to know that he broke my heart, what ended up happening I decided to move on. And this was when I met my current boyfriend now Bryan. We met June 13th and made it official June 14th of 2007.

When my graduation came around Tuan decided to actually keep his promise and come all the way from Louisiana to Virginia to come and see me, like he promised. Well, at the time he didn't know that I finally found a new guy to be with, and was a bit shocked and upset. The deal now is that I'm still with Bryan, and here I am in Louisiana with Tuan. And since my feels for Tuan have disappear completely, and yet I thought that I can fall back in love with him, I guess I was wrong.

June 17th, Bryan and I went away for our one year anniversary trip to the beach together alone, and it was a wonderful time we had. I'll upload the pictures when I'm back in Virginia, since I'll be back tomorrow afternoon. I'm excited to be back, and now I have to tell Tuan that I have no more feels for him. Hopefully, I'll have enough strength to tell him, because hurting someone is my weakness.

My Thoughts:

this morning when i woke up i cooked some korean dumplings :] they are so good, i also made some coffee for everyone in the house. when everyone decided to wake up, we all got ready and went to eden together. of course my boyfriend had to go, because eden is the most dangerous place to be, especially if you bring kids with you. we went and bought some food. i was able to get some bubble tea, yumm... avocado is my favorite :] and now we are home and i have an essay to write, oh well. i'll update later.

  Thinking Like:

Today was another long day at work. My legs hurt so much from walking everywhere. So, my plans for tomorrow is to..

• get my hair cut
• go to ikea and buy a desk
• go to stephanie's birthday
• go to sophia's birthday
• work on reseach paper

So, last night I talked to my ex-recent boyfriend. I seriously thought that something good was going to happened, but more hurtful things were said only in a more gentle voices. He said that he wants to get back with me, but not now. He needs me to learn how to be more independent, and don't depend on him for everything. Even though I really don't but..okay.

Well, right now I'm basically trying to live my life and since senior year is around the corner, I guess this is the time when I need time to hang out and be lazy with friends. He said that we shouldn't talk to each other for awhile, at least until my high school graduation and holidays. He told me cared for me still...*sigh*

You guys are too much problems to the girls, you cause us mucho headaches man. Today at work I got a call from my FIRST INNOCENT CRUSH, he was having some girl problems because of him messing up. *Sigh* he called me to talk and give advice. Well, anyways. Beside my problems and his, today was basically a good day.

At work I did some of my homework and I also took some pictures. I'll upload them later. Not like anyone looks at them anyways. My day was okay. I thought work would stress me out some more, but nope. I actually feel fine, well bedtime is here. So, night doods..leave loves

P.S. my wish tonight is to hope everything will go fine between Tuany Vu-Vu and I...

=]

Thinking Like:

This isn't my first time having a xanga. This is propably my third or fourth xanga. I either forgot my password, or I just get to lazy to even delete my account. So, I know what is what. I'll start my journal here again, like those other ones. I will end up sooner or later get lazy and not update, but this time I'll try.

Today went to school. I had U.S./V.A. Histoy, I have this class every morning. Our teacher gave us some notes and he told us about his dream that he had last night. After that I went to Art I. I basically screw around with my friends in that class. Even though everyone else is so serious, I'm very serious in that class. I went to lunch with Sangji (my great friend for a year) and Lynda (just met her a couple of months ago) and Lauren (someone I met freshmen year). Also, in Art I basically do all of my math or latin homework. Anyways, had lunch went to Alg II and took a quiz. Got an 80..that's horrible, but I think I'll make it out alive. Then went to Latin I, learned nothing and went home.

Nothing really special, but I got a call from my "special friend" and he wanted to "talk." I'm kind of scared though, wondering what's going on. Well, I really have nothing else to say besides..have to go to work tomorrow..Arg..So LAZY..Oh welp. leave love..

One more thing, xanga is a site for people to express their thoughts not as a porn site, so those people out there that use xanga as porn and you show off your bodies, you guys are disgusting and have no life..you low-life idiots.

bye you guys